Moth Spirit & the Grief Behind Dis-ease

Grief beckons us to surrender to it, not because it's cruel, but because it's a sacred gateway.

To where? To what? You're asking...

I wish I could tell you exactly where your grief is taking you, but I can't.

I can only most honestly speak for myself.

My griefs, my traumas, wounds and losses have carried me windingly into the arms of Spirit... in many different forms over the years. Grief has carried me into conscious contact with my soul, my Purpose and into endless wells of compassion for our humanity.

Divine Love has sat with me in the Darkness and floods of tears countless times in my life.

The profound, expansive and eternal parts of us are meant to awaken, activate and come alive in the darkest parts of our life stories. Feeling so much pain until you're numb, hollow, foggy and lost is only one part of Grief's story... I'm here to give voice to the Other Side of Grief's story, too... we can hold both; there's room for all of us... and we're most certainly not alone!

Moth Spirit, also, comes alive as darkness descends. It's no accident that Moth Spirit came to me recently as I've also been seeing several clients who's bodies share with me the profound depths of grief they've been harboring unattended and unexpressed, sometimes for several decades.

My clients have all received at least one health diagnosis they want to resolve and they saught me out because they know the disease has deeper roots, deeper beginnings than just the physical manifestation of their ailment. Receiving a diagnosis can fuel new feelings of grief, let alone the origins of older griefs from long ago.

I feel that Moth Spirit is a Compassionate Helping Spirit meant to guide us as we navigate the darkness of our grief and pain through our faith. Experiencing the great emptiness of grief in no way diminishes or negates your sense of spirituality or your belief in Spirit or a Higher Power.

I'm not aiming for "spiritual perfectionism" any more than you are, and having faith in a spiritual belief system doesn't mean we're now somehow immune to negative human emotions! Grief is a natural human response to loss, and we may experience grief as frequent waves hitting the shore, or as the slower phases of the moon, or perhaps even longer seasons of dark and light.

Your faith is not an escape hatch from the darker parts of life and grieving... but it's a magnificent navigation tool to find what you need next to nourish your Be-ing, your body and your new life moving forward.

But you can't possibly move forward until you claim the faith and courage to grieve in a way that makes you feel safe and held... when you don't have access to this sense of safety and assurance that you're not alone and all your emotions are okay, then grief gets choked down and buried for so long that it makes you sick.

Have you been afraid to grieve? Like, you can't see the bottom of that well... that endless abyss, so you avoid grieving and you keep it all stuffed down?

Or are have you perhaps been grieving for years but feel stuck in it, weighed down by it, unable to sort out all the emotions enmeshed with your grief and you can't seem to move forward in your life, maybe you've got one foot stuck in your own grave so to speak?

For me, I often didn't feel safe to grieve. What about you? Is there something about your circumstances or environment that makes you feel like it's not safe to grieve?

And now, on top of all of it, you've been diagnosed with at least one major health problem that you may also not be able to see your way out of... yet.

I see the diagnosis as an opportunity for deep healing that includes opening to the profound experience of Infinity while you're still here in a body.

I believe we can heal anything we want to when we partner with Spirit, plants and our soul's purpose for being here in the first place.

I promise you, your Purpose is not to remain small and disempowered in your grief.

Grief can expand us into The Infinte One, but it's often experienced as Rilke wrote:

Until you choose to generate the courage to grieve, to get the help you need to digest your grief, you will never know the inexplicable, sacred gifts that Grief has to offer you, specifically as an individual soul.

Let's be clear, nobody wants a reason to grieve!

But love it or hate, living a human life brings endless opportunites to grieve, to love, to feel joy, to feel anger, or bitter disappointment, to experience incredible relationships full of closeness and connection, to experience the full spectrum of human emotions.

We can NOT, as much as we may think we want to, only experience sunshine and fair-weather days! And your life and mine prove it to us.

As you experience your ability to contain the whole universe expand through doing your grief work, you'll come to discover that your best days are ahead of you, not behind you. You'll begin to Real-ize that your heart is capable of feeling a genuine joy for living again.

I remember when my mom died and I was 15 years old thinking, "I don't wanna live the rest of my life without her. That's way too long!"

This past September was 35 years of living my life without her, in the normal, physical sense anyway. My relationship with her changed dramatically when she died suddenly that Thursday morning. I wasn't able to truly, safely grieve her death until she had been gone for 21 years.

Death wasn't my only gateway into grief... I survived child abuse, painful relationships, lies, betrayal and divorce as well.

And on the other side of my life coin is a whole bunch of love, delight and actual miracles!

Please don't settle for a grief-ridden body.

Don't settle for a life defined by grief alone.

Please reach for your loved ones, reach for plants, reach for your Angels and reach out to me for shamanic healing.

Archangel Azrael is especially helpful when facing grief as are the following herbs: Lemon Balm (especially for hidden griefs or grief associated with dry cough), Rose petals from the wild rose (Rosa spp.), Hawthorn leaves, flowers or berries, Mimosa bark, and Marshmallow root or leaves.

It's especially important to support and restore the Nervous System through grief... acute and chronic. I do this with shamanic counseling and practices, bodywork, herbalism, dreamwork, and your hand analysis.

I give free consultations to work with me 1 to 1, so if you have any questions simply call or text me:

480-259-7140

or e-mail: Theresa@11thHourShaman.com